Tuesday, May 22, 2012

What Do You Think About?

Sometimes I wonder what other people think about. Anyone who has read my daily thoughts for any length of time has a pretty good idea what I am about. Many people I know don’t seem to think deeply about too many things. Sometimes I am envious of that. I seem to always be on a quest for meaning and understanding and this often keeps me unsettled. I am reminded of two things. One is an episode of Seinfeld where Jerry’s had another relationship go sour. Kramer looks at him and says, “You think there’s more to life, don’t you”? Then he says, “Well let me clue you in, Buddy, there’s not”! Another time I was frustrated because my spouse never seemed to care about the same things as me. I looked at her and said, “You should think deeper thoughts. A ship that sails in deep water never runs a ground”. She looked at me and said, “Yes, but if you stay in the shallow water you will never drown”. Sometimes people seem to admire me because they think I am “deep”. At the same time I am sometimes envious of people who don’t feel the need to understand life or see it’s deeper meaning. They seem to just live life and I admire the simplicity of that. Some people seem to just flow with life and I often feel that I am swimming upstream and fighting the current. Yes, I have my moments of intellectual and spiritual clarity but I also experience a lot of darkness and confusion along the way. What kind of person are you? Do you just live life and deal with whatever life throws at you or are you constantly trying to figure it all out and understand it?

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