Sleepless

Even though summer refuses to let go of its grasp without a fight, in my mind it is autumn.  There are already visions of pumpkins dancing in my head and I am eager for my first pumpkin spice latte of the season.  However, since the temperatures will be in the 90’s most of the week my visions and taste buds must live in faith and hope that autumn is right around the corner and will be here soon.

 

I love coffee and its first cousin, caffeine.  I especially love them this morning since I had a terrible night.  If I got three hours of sleep last night I am lucky.  I’m not sure what the problem was.  I slept well on Friday and Saturday night.  I woke up naturally each morning and felt refreshed without spending half the day in bed.  Even on the weekends I am generally early riser because I love mornings.  The problem is that I usually don't want to go to work.  Getting up is not the problem.  I have no memory of any Sunday afternoon naps.  I think the problem was my mind.  Sometimes I can’t turn it off and for some reason it kicks into overdrive when I go to bed.  To make it even worse I tend to think about things that upset me and then my mind obsesses over these thoughts.  It is very annoying.  I think the Buddha is correct when he says that the source of most of our suffering is our own mind.  I’ve mentioned before that I once read that our minds will always go in a negative direction unless we intentionally think positive thoughts.  Today, between yawns and refills of my coffee cup, I will think positive thoughts.  If a negative thought creeps into my mind, I will send an army of positive thoughts to chase the negative thoughts from my mind.  If you have this problem, you might want to do the same.